Introduction to the Outsider Perspective

Reflecting on the world from the vantage point of an outsider can be both enlightening and humbling. This perspective allows us to see the world as it is, and often paints a clearer picture of the complexities and realities that exist beneath the surface of our societies. This article explores the journey of an American who has seen a dramatic shift in his worldview.

From Nationalism to an Outsider's Glimpse

My journey began in the heart of an American upbringing, where the ethos of red, white, and blue was deeply ingrained. As a young boy, I embraced the patriotic fervor and believed in the ideals represented by my country. However, as I evolved into adulthood, a stark reality began to set in. The nation's fractures and underlying issues gradually revealed themselves, and what once seemed like a cohesive and invincible entity began to appear as a house divided.

My current life as a foreigner living in a developing world oligarchy offers a vivid contrast to my past experiences. The simple act of going to a mall for groceries juxtaposed against the starkness of early morning public markets resonates with me deeply. These markets, with their near-pandemonium of activity, expose the raw and untamed face of urban life. It's a world where darkness and hope intertwine, often lying just beyond the seams of the everyday.

The Dance of the Creative Muse

The creative process has been a lifelong companion, and yet it remains as elusive as it is essential. Unlike artists whose work is often driven by a muse, I find my motivation in a different rhythm. Creativity for me is not a scheduled visit but more a hitchhike with life's experiences. The creative process is a dance between inspiration and discipline, where the muse, metaphorical or otherwise, occasionally catches up to my work.

When the muse does make an appearance, it's almost as if she watches over my work, guiding me with a cup of coffee and a casual inquiry, “Whatcha working on?” This interplay between the internal and external forces is what drives the creative spirit and helps me navigate the complexities of my life as an outsider.

Triggers and Creative Love Letters

The creative spark can be ignited by almost anything, from the mundane to the profound. My mortgage payment, though a necessity, has become a significant motivator for me. It serves as a tangible reminder that my work is not just a passion but a means to sustain me in this new world. Sometimes, the impetus for creative endeavors is triggered by a scheduled conversation, a walk outside, or a simple conversation. These triggers can be the fuel that propels my creative endeavors forward.

Ultimately, the creative journey is a continuum, a blend of hope and desperation, of the daily grind and the moments of inspiration. It is a story of resilience and adaptation, told from the perspective of an outsider who has chosen to live authentically, even in the midst of uncertainty.